For the first time in months, I’ve felt like I have nothing to do. Have you ever felt that there’s no burden on you?
There’s nothing to read, nothing to work on in games, no new dramas, no new TV shows, no need to read newspapers, no books lying around on my bed. There is absolutely nothing that I need to do.
Out of habit, I still woke up at 8 in the morning, walked around the house searching for something to read. I did find the magazine issue I bought a few days back, but then I remembered that I don’t need it anymore. And in the afternoon I was on games again, but there was no pressure on me to win or perform, I was just playing.
In the evening, I logged out of the game account and then regretted having wasted the entire afternoon playing games. And then I looked at my left, where there’s usually a stack of books. It wasn’t there. Then I remembered, I dumped it this morning, I don’t need it anymore. I was free and logged into games again.
Have you ever felt, that there’s nothing for you to do? Everything you wanted to do or was on your to-do list has been crossed out?
Now there is only one thing to do, wait. Wait for the results, wait for something new to turn up, wait while you build yourself.