I don’t know what got into me, I just don’t want to write today, or for that matter do anything.I just want to sit in my room and laze around. It feels, um, different? And then I want to write and I want to get out and hit the gym and then read a book or something. But no, I don’t want to read either.
But then, I’m still here, writing another blog, why? I don’t want to then why I am doing this. This is going to be a bad post if I even write it out, but I still am.
Does it happen to you too? Don’t feel like doing anything, you are just too stressed out, but when you think about it, you haven’t done anything, to feel stressed. It sucks.
Most of the times in our lives, we are just this. You just know you don’t want a person, that person is toxic for you, but when they call up, you run downstairs and with all your might, you run to where they are going to meet you. You know you don’t want to do it, but you still do it.
Then you talk to them for an hour and then their “guy” calls up and they take your leave. Just when you thought things are getting better this happens. Then you try calling them and texting them, but guess what? You’re blocked, again. It hurts you to the core. Breaks you down. All the strength you had gathered over the years to keep yourself together, lost in a moment.
You want an escape, you want to run away, and tell everyone that this is not your fault, but there’s no one to blame. There isn’t going to be anyone because there is none, not even you.
Somethings are just meant to happen, don’t resist, just flow.